I am on my phone or I would hop onto chat. I don't know how much I can say what I have done. Oh if I get banned, I get banned! I have reached my breaking point. I am so numb..I do not feel! All - feel is the pain in my heart. I carved the word UGLY into my right thigh because that is how I feel about myself. Not deep enough for stitches, but enogh to bleed. I didn't even feel me cutting myself. I hate feeling this numb. I can't even sleep! I wake myself right back up! I am very scared!