My brother is going into the hospital because of his depression and my dad is there complaining about how he has to watch my brothers son all day tomorrow because of it. I am scared if my dad learned about my self harm, depression, and 3 suicide attempts he would view me as a huge disappointment and be frustrated with me as well. When he found out about what my brother deals with my dad distanced himself. It's why i try to deal with everything in secret and not have anyone know about it except for my therapist, and my dad doesn't even know I see a therapist. If my dad knew who I really was and what I deal with I would be such a huge disappointment to him. he would stop loving me.