I just don't know anymore Life use to be so great, how did it get like this I don't want to have these suicidal feelings but I just don't want to live no more Life just isn't worth it anymore, a number of my close friends are feeling the exact same way and I always try/do talk them out of it. But that just makes me feel like a hypocrite when i dont want to live myself. I havent told anyone these feelings I have as I am scared and do not want their pity. I really do want to live but I just lose all motivation time and time again There is nothing good about my life, I am never happy and things just seem to get worse I'm here tonight, curled in a ball...lost I don't know what to do, I know you all say things get better and thats what I tell myself over and over but they never do and that just makes me worse. I have been in a constant state of sadness for about 2-3 years now and at just 16 thats a long time.