...??i am scared

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41021

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**tears**

i am so scared
and i do not feel okay.
ugh
and i know this is a bad idea.
connecting with ppl is not helpful at all.
it just prolongs the pain.
 

41021

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#3
the fear is confusing me

i have no reason to be so afraid

it's bordering on panic-fear
that gut fight or flight

stepping into the unknown?
 

ASolitaryBlue

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the only thing that could help, i imagine, is religion here. believing in heaven or a life of no pain after death. but i would think that despite the scariness, if all of our being really didnt want to live, we already wouldnt be alive. if that makes any sense, which it probly doesnt.
*hugs* we care about you and dont want you to have to step into that great unknown.
 

41021

Banned Member
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i get that about if all our being really didn't want to live
and my body feels like that
i can barely keep water down
i can barely move
i feel like my body is dying
i think i could easily die just by not doing anything
i think if i don't take me out at my own hand, my body will do it for me.

but it seems so wrong to prolong it
when it's so simple to just jump

you know, i never wanted anyone to take that step either
but i have tried and tried put forth my best effort into reengaging
and it's not working and i feel even worse each time i fail...i just sink further and further.

ugh

i am so sorry

but freaking echo man, i told you this is a bad idea damnit i cannot do this.
 

pinkpetals33

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i get that about if all our being really didn't want to live
and my body feels like that
i can barely keep water down
i can barely move
i feel like my body is dying
i think i could easily die just by not doing anything
i think if i don't take me out at my own hand, my body will do it for me.

but it seems so wrong to prolong it
when it's so simple to just jump

you know, i never wanted anyone to take that step either
but i have tried and tried put forth my best effort into reengaging
and it's not working and i feel even worse each time i fail...i just sink further and further.

ugh

i am so sorry

but freaking echo man, i told you this is a bad idea damnit i cannot do this.
Have you eaten anything in the last few days Kali?

Bad idea because?
 

41021

Banned Member
#10
can't keep anything down atm
dehydrated trying to sip water

bad idea; because it's easier if i just break all connections to ppl, it's harder when i connect to ppl
that is what i need to do, isolate myself.

i don't feel okay
 

pinkpetals33

Well-Known Member
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can't keep anything down atm
dehydrated trying to sip water

bad idea; because it's easier if i just break all connections to ppl, it's harder when i connect to ppl
that is what i need to do, isolate myself.

i don't feel okay
Quite honestly, you talk completely like you are NOT okay.....your words are fragmented at times Kali....when compare it to other posts I've convered with you, some of these today almost sound beyond reality.

Would you give yourself a moment please...just breath until you are breathing normal....and try to get hydrated. Dehydration can lead to coma and psychosis.

You don't have to engage with everyone but at least keep us in the loop.....we're not asking you to book yourself to the hospital or psych ward but we just want to know what is going on with you......doesn't that seem doable for the moment?
 

pinkpetals33

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#16
a bit
trying to sip
hold it in my mouth
can't keep much down
Just a little medical advice..if you have a sea salt or grey salt...and put a pinch on your tongue, to keep the stomach from regurgitating.

Worst case, jut dab water on your tongue and drink droplets.....just want to get you hydrated if anythng right now....

** consider yourself hugged at the moment ** wish sometimes we could be there physically...........
 

flyingdutchmen

Well-Known Member
#17
and no meds in this condition kali, they will not do any good if you are hydrated. your bodyfluid is priority. please keep trying to drink a litle bit.. have you considered calling a doctor ?
 

41021

Banned Member
#18
**hugs**

i have sea salt

appetites been poor past four months
recently not too good

before i would get hungry, make food, then couldn't eat it
now i am not even hungry :sad:

i don't care if i eat or drink it doesn't matter :no:

i don't feel okay
**tears**
ugh
i cannot do this
ugh
i wanna go
**tears**
i am tired
and i don't feel so good
ugh
i don't want to see anymore
i do not want to breathe anymore
i do not want my heart to continue to beat
i want to just go...
please
i don't feel so good
 

flyingdutchmen

Well-Known Member
#20
:sad:

kali pls hang in there
you have us all worried, keep trying to drink litle bits and keep telling us how you are doing
dont give up kali you matter to us
 
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