I don't believe it is any use of me trying, anymore; I just have no hope of ever finding my one and only girl. I don't ever speak to anyone and I don't know anyone on the Internet. Also, what girl is interested in a guy that keeps talking about suicide? That I look better than the vast majority isn't exactly enough. Of course, if I found her, I would have all the energy I'd ever ask for, but for that to happen, I first have to get well, and there's no way I will do that. Not without finding her, first. There's just no hope... why can't I just give up hope and kill myself? I'm only a few months to 27, now, and I still haven't found her...! I never will, either. I never socialise and I have no friends. I need to give up hope and kill myself... I'm so tired of this loneliness... I just can't take it, anymore, soon... I'm going to lose my mind if things do not change. I can't live like this!