I am so depressed, now, again... no hope of finding love

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by Hae-Gi, Jan 10, 2008.

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  1. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    I don't believe it is any use of me trying, anymore; I just have no hope of ever finding my one and only girl. I don't ever speak to anyone and I don't know anyone on the Internet. Also, what girl is interested in a guy that keeps talking about suicide? That I look better than the vast majority isn't exactly enough. Of course, if I found her, I would have all the energy I'd ever ask for, but for that to happen, I first have to get well, and there's no way I will do that. Not without finding her, first. There's just no hope... why can't I just give up hope and kill myself? I'm only a few months to 27, now, and I still haven't found her...! I never will, either. I never socialise and I have no friends. I need to give up hope and kill myself... I'm so tired of this loneliness... I just can't take it, anymore, soon... I'm going to lose my mind if things do not change. I can't live like this!
     
  2. Blackness

    Blackness Guest

    If you keep saying you "never will" find her, then you never will!
    You need to be positive and relaise that a girl won't change your life as a whole. Perhaps you haven't found this girl because you arn't ready yourself?
     
  3. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    That wouldn't be positive, though... that would be a mindset that would make it absolutely necessary for me to die. Finding a girl (my one and only girl and my true love) is the only thing that would give me meaning in life. Thinking about the possibility of finding her is the only thing that stops me from starting to prepare my suicide. Having her would give so much meaning that I almost would lose my mind because I would be so happy. I know this would be the case; it's not just in my head. I KNOW it! Having my girl is the only reason to live... it would change everything.

    Yes, that may well be the case. Maybe I will find her after I've moved to my apartment...

    Thanks for your concern... I feel a bit better, right now, though... don't know how long it will last, though...
     
  4. Panther

    Panther Well-Known Member

    Blackness, good post.

    Hae-Gi, why do you feel like this? how do you see girls? I know I can't access your mind, but I find it a bit odd to say the least that you're this desperate, and girls (and blokes) aren't going to want to have a relationship with someone who relies on another person to this extent, that's the bottom line. And there are plenty of people who end up in unhappy relationships. Read Blackness's post even though it's small because it might just help you.
     
  5. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    I don't have the energy to restate why I feel like this... if you're interested, please check my profile and choose to view all my previous posts... I think they should clarify most of what you wonder about...

    You're right that the very vast majority won't... of course, since someone like me, who is idealistically romantic, can exist, surely there must be others, as well? Girls, as well, of course. But indeed, we are few and far between. My only hope would be Internet, but so far, it hasn't given me optimism. The wisest thing, most likely, is to commit suicide, since I otherwise, most probably, either will end up with someone who isn't really as romantic as I, someone who won't care about me for a longer time, or not end up with anyone at all, continuing to be forced to stay in this horrible loneliness. I probably am fated to be alone, in this life... if I die, I will, perhaps, find luck in my next life, thus finally ending the pain of reincarnation.
     
  6. Panther

    Panther Well-Known Member

    have you spent a lot of time searching for internet site(s) that might help?

    I'll try and read some of your earlier posts, I think I might find them interesting. I probably have a very vague idea of how you might feel although I wouldn't have experienced such strong feelings myself.
     
  7. Angelo_91

    Angelo_91 Well-Known Member


    your wrong if you think a girl is going to change everything.

    my advice from experience is try to be more down to earth; dreaming too much will only hurt you. ignore negative thoughts and maybe when you encounter a girl that has interest in you, dont sound as desperate as you sound here, just fake confidence till you make it.
     
  8. Hae-Gi

    Hae-Gi Banned Member

    I never show desperation in "real life," since I constantly am depressed; even when I "feel good," I really am depressed. Even when I laugh (real laughter), I am depressed, deep inside. As such, I assume I never will find her, and, due to this, at most, give a faint smile to girls I speak with. Girls don't really show an interest in me, though, since I barely ever put my foot out of the door. Nothing to do where I live, anyway.

    Too bad I won't find her in real life, though; only Internet is a possibility, for someone like me. Unfortunately, I show a lot of desperation on the Internet. I think it's time to start preparing my suicide... too bad that the only unmessy method that I trust is very hard to get access to. I doubt it's a viable method...

    I really hate my life. And it won't get better to whine about it... it will only get worse. I scare away any possible girl with my desperation. I hate this... hate it. But that doesn't matter... it just does not matter that I hate it. I wish I never would've been born. My youth is slipping away, anyway... soon I have no choice but to end it. I cannot accept getting old. And I am old, soon... very soon.
     
  9. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    I noticed you said you assume you won't find her. Your already giving yourself an distinct disadvantage.
    Just over 6 Billion people on this planet, there is definitely someone out there for you.

    Ending your life prematurely will deny that and besides isn't it best to find out who you fall for rather then having one big question looming over your head, that question being "What if"
     
  10. taranama

    taranama Well-Known Member

    i know how you feel....i think i'm gonna be alone forever, but i'm only 20, nearly 21, and i know that i have loads of time to find ''the one'' and fall in love and live happily ever after ;) look at it this way, my dad who's 54 found love last year and he's the happiest now that i've ever seen him.

    so i guess what i'm trying to say is that there's hope for us all yet ;)

    love x x
     
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