I have had it. I always suspected that I would kill myself but I just never thought that it would end like this....feeling so useless and as if my whole existence has amounted to nothing. I guess I imagined I would just get tired of fighting instead leaving behind a shambles of a life, nothing to show for my efforts and having my family know how I feel but just ignoring me and pretending as if I don't exist.
Like an idiot I canceled my date two days ago but well I am here again only the mess is even bigger.
How did this happen is all I can think....
Like an idiot I canceled my date two days ago but well I am here again only the mess is even bigger.
How did this happen is all I can think....