I am so done with caring ...where did it get me? Fucking alone waiting like a fool. Stupid thing is I now feel totally worthless for trying to be a good friend and am left wondering what I did wrong. I hate feeling way as I really try to make a difference. One of the last times I was suicidal I ended up with about 40 stitches and I don't want anyone to feel that way so I try to help and look where I am now-alone with nobody I know around. I am so ready to leave this place, it is great and all but I cannot help but care for certain people and it is killing me.