I am so goddamn tired of being bipolar

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by faeriegirl, Jul 30, 2013.

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  1. faeriegirl

    faeriegirl Active Member

    I've been fighting BPII my whole life. Been misdiagnosed my whole life too until this year and got on meds that actually help a little.

    I'm just mostly tired of fighting was seems like a losing battle. It's 100x harder for me to just live in the world and do "normal" things without a fight. Going to work takes everything I have. Dealing with a marriage that's basically falling apart is exhausting. I hate where I live, I'm just sooooo tired of struggling much. I will never be NOT bipolar. This is what I have to "look forward to" in life. I'm just ready to check out, is all. Every day I wish that I could just blink out of existance and have been thinking of ways to make that happen that will 100% work. I'm a nurse, I work with psych patients so I see everyday the aftermath of not succeeding in an attempt. I am just afraid of the permanent disfigurement/organ damage if I fail. That's really the only thing keeping me standing.
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    AS a nurse a psych nurse hun you also know that there are newer meds being developed each year that are fighting this illness and helping people to become more stable . Live with less highs and lows and with therapy as well they can have a good life. You have just started to try new meds now it takes time to find right combination but you will hu
    Don't give up to quickly ok
     
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