I am just so gone.. my life is nothing, i dont mean anything to anyone. i really dont.. so me is going camping... so what got me all upset? well.. this past week i had 2 interviews, one was in person and one on the phone.. well i go to the one in person and it goes well up until the point when they ask me if i have ever been in jail? :blink: well they do a background check on you so i am honest and tell them, yes i have been arrested and currently have a class c felony on my record.. i was totally honest with them.. well they tell me they have to take that into account and the interview stops, they say they will start calling people into work next week, well its been one week, and no phone call for me, so i figured i did not get hired, okay fine i am sure i can find something else. well, at church there is a posting for a house parent and the guy knows my minister, so like the dummy i am i go ahead and call him and gave my minister as a ref. sort of, well tonight i check my email and my minister had called him and said that he does not recomend me for the job, so the guy emailed me telling me that of what my minister told him and sai he would not hire me.. working with kids is my life.. it has helped me emotionally many times, for me to work with children and help take care of them helps me to live and be happy also. i have babysitted many times and taken care of not just my nieces but neighbors kids and even strangers kids.. but you know what? i cant do a dang thing okay, i cant. and then i get this saying from my minister that i am wanted and appreceiated at church that right there is a bunch of BS... So i have made up my mind... in one week i am going camping.. plain and simple. Dad wants to go put flowers on his mother and dads grave and go visit his brother, his brother told him he could stay with him if he wanted to, well im taking dad to see his brother, then i am outta here and going camping.. enough is enough.. i have had it.. i am throw getting hurt by others who plainly will flat out lie telling me they love me and im appreciated:huh: yeah right, sure i am????????? i am no more appreceiated at church then i am anywhere else.. nobody will give me a job nor a chance, yeah you guys brought me back alright, back into a life as a low down transcient.. cause you see thats what i will end up to be.. one has to have a job in order to pay bills, how the heck you expect me to live? and those who think im not serious? well let me just say this.. i will be going to church sunday and you better enjoy my company and better at least say hi cause after church sunday i wont be there anymore.. comprenda!