I have tried since first being on this website yesterday, and reading some very sad stories, but I cant sleep, I can't eat, and I don't know how to go on. My son (bless his wisdom - at least I have done one thing right in the world), sat with me today to tell me that he had spoken to his father, who apparently said to him that breaking up was not what he wanted..He just wanted 'a break' for awhile. Apparently he was bored, and over me being tired all the time (yes, I have been very tired, but he was diagnosed with Bipolar 5 years ago - and it tends to take it out of you...) I had always thought I was a strong person - and you know what - I am not - I am alone, frightened, can't stop crying, and want something wonderful to happen. Instead, I am sitting here with a bottle of red wine, trying to work out how I will get through the next 24 hours...never mind the fact that due to my ex freezing bank accounts - I have to find a job within the next 24 hours, and earn some money... I have never felt so alone in the world...so many people, and it seems no-one who really understands (yep, I know this sounds selfish - but I want to be selfish right now) So, no need for replies, just really needed somewhere to vent a bit. Not looking for sympathy - just understanding.