I really am so freeking screwed... The lady from the health department from Sparta called today and left a message that the nurse i was supposed to see on friday had to cancel cause she is not going to be there, and that they had re-scheduled me for May 5... I am so screwed it aint funny... my meds run out on Friday.. i am taking a beta blocker.. the only place i get it is at the health department, and you have to see the doctor before they give you a re-fill.. they wont give you meds until you see them.. so not only is my ear hurting and in bad shape.. i am now going to run out of my beta blockers and my heart meds that i cant just stop but have to now.. i am posting this because if i die- and that is a very well possiability now.. that you all will know that it was because the stupid state health department does not care for their patients... i want everyone to know that i did not take my life... that they have physically killed me oh and the stupid state of tennessee as well is just as guilty for denying me my tenn-care when i needed it... heck they already killed a bunch already by cutting them off their meds.. stupid idiots... you cant just stop a beta blocker.. any doctor knows that.. it can kill you.. you have to graduly cut them down to get off them and i been on it for over a year.. The lady at the desk said - " i am sorry but we cant get you in until may 5 2009 " so i say can i get enough meds till then? this is her reply " no i am sorry but you have to see the doc to get the refills " so I am screwed.. And i cant get my heart pill.. thats another one i need.. yeah i still got my nitro but if i cant get the pill to slow down my fast heart rate, what good does nitro do????? they are freeking idiots and i told you they dont care and this is right here proof!!!! plus, i went to the local web-site and posted a prayer and one that i had before that had a reply from a friend who said that the health department does not do the c-scope, so i am screwed there as well.. i cant get in to do this procedure therefore i cant get the polyps removed, which will be more cancer in me etc... i am fed up with the stupid state and with my life.. What point is it in me trying to live when i cant even get the care i need to stay alive? its plain down right dis-hearting.. thats what it is... and if this is not a crisis then i dont know what is?