It's feeling more and more like I end up crying every day. I don't know if I really am doing it, but I know I at least cry more than one day of the week and not because of sad movies. I'm so tired of it.
And yet what makes it worse to me is that it's just crying. I cry because I'm sad, I cry because I feel guilty, but I just cry. I don't feel like killing myself like I felt not even a month ago. Yet I also can't seem to make myself do more than just be there, I never feel like going out, I never feel like exercising, I don't even feel like finding a job even though I know I should be. I just exist to feel more and more miserable.
And yet what makes it worse to me is that it's just crying. I cry because I'm sad, I cry because I feel guilty, but I just cry. I don't feel like killing myself like I felt not even a month ago. Yet I also can't seem to make myself do more than just be there, I never feel like going out, I never feel like exercising, I don't even feel like finding a job even though I know I should be. I just exist to feel more and more miserable.