This misery day in day out has gone on since I can remember. I am in my 50's and so sick and tired of everything and I CANNOT do anything about it! I am mostly agoraphobic and am stuck indoors, I can go to the local shops and that's about it. I am totally alone here. Please try and remember that I am not a youngster and I have been fighting this since I was a kid. As time has gone on, I now have physical disorders/illnesses that plague me. What the hell is the point in this slow suffering/dying process! I never had children, I have a sister who I don't really get on with and vice versa, thats it! My mum and dad have passed. Everyone I know has a life and doesn't want to be bothered with me......clearly. There just isn't any reason for me to be here, there never was! I am soooooooo tired of the same thing day in day out. No one cares, no one visits, no one phones. And yes I used to do all the calling up of people until I realized that if I didn't call them I would never hear from them!!!! I just cannot bring myself to do what I need to do to be out of this miserable prison.