How do people do it? What do people think about all day that they can continue to function? I literally cannot have a single introspective thought without falling into depression within minutes. It is tiring and frustrating to keep thinking of irrelevant bullshit all day to keep my mind off every failure I've ever had. This is so fucking stupid, I have to be on guard against myself 24/7. There has to be something wrong with me because if the entire human race feels like I do all the time then this life is one sick joke. The worst thing is that it feels good to hate myself, it is my only comfort in a confusing and frightening world. Anyway what is the point of caring about myself, I am going to die just like everyone else and NOTHING will have been worth it. Fleeting things are of no value. Humans are of no value. I can't tell if I am intelligent for thinking this or really stupid or out of my fucking gourd. I just can't wait 'til I start REALLY believing it and really check out of this wasted life.