I really am having a very bad day. I have everything worked out. I have notes made. I have a place in mind after tonight, a nice quiet park outside of town. I have access to my <mod edit - methods>. I hurt so bad. I bother people. I annoy people. I am a useless fat ugly stupid sinful person. I don't want to be here. This is a step above hell for me. I have a councilor, but I can't tell her this as she would prob have me committed, then I would even be worse. I have even thought about trying cutting. I just want to leave. I want to go home. I really want to go home. If I have to stay I want to be normal. Everyone else looks so happy and they have such nice lives. I just want to go home. But, I am scarred. Why... I JUST WANT TO DIE!