I really don't understand anything any more. Someone seems to have it in their head that I fucked about with their emotions, and believe me, I didn't. At least I didn't mean to mess about with their emotions. I'm truly sorry. Truly. I'm still talking to people I used to have feelings for, and she takes it as proof as I've messed her about, but no. I honestly haven't. I love T, really. Sure, I had feelings for other girls, but yeah, who hasn't? This whole shit has been my fault, completely. I should really just end it right now. I could if I wanted to. I do want to, but I'm still afraid. I've hurt you, I can see that. I just want you to know that I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't really know how I can make it up to you, or how I can say how sorry I am. I think the best thing to do is just die. That way I couldn't hurt anyone else. By the way, this post is also in my diary in the let it all out forum, just so you know. But yes, I'm sure I'm going to do this now.