I can only do so much. I can only try so many times to be there for some of you. If you don't reach back to me, what am I meant to do? How does that make me feel, you think? This is happening over and over here. I can't handle it ladies & gents. Its eats into my inadequacies too much. Its not good for me right now to keep trying and trying but to get nothing in return - not even an acknowledgement. I know many of you are in pain and I know many of you isolate to try and deal with things. Perhaps I take too much on board and become too involved because I worry about not hearing from people. But I have been here for you, and I really have tried, I feel, to help. Perhaps I'm just not the type of person who can be there for others - or one who can help others in any way. Maybe you didn't want to talk or help or whatever in the first place, but were too reserved to say anything. Irregardless, I can't do this any longer, it hurts me too much to experience this rejection over and over and over. And, of course it makes me feel like i'm disposable and inadequate and a host of other emotions that eat at me. Therefore I am sorry, I can't keep trying, I can't keep pushing some of you to try and help you, to get you to talk, to try and find a way to feel better, just to be here for some of you. I feel (and know) I am letting you down, I hope you can somewhat understand. Again, I am sorry, but I am completely depleted. I just can't.