I think I have just done something really stupid, I am saying think because I am a little unsure about my feelings. I have had some extremly strong suicidal thoughts and acting them out feels a real reality.
Your not pathetic, we all have those feelings, thats what brang us here. We all can relate to you in some way, so don't feel alone. We're all going thru hard times. We can all be unsure about our feelings, i know i do and thats completely normal.