I am such an idiot.

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by elpepo, Sep 26, 2009.

  1. elpepo

    elpepo Active Member

    I want to kill myself. I'm practically good and ready to go.

    But you know why I haven't done it? I want to know how a certain show I watch ends. I want to watch it every time it airs. It makes me happy, it's one of the very few things that make me happy.

    Is this trully the last thing keeping me alive? Or am I unconsciously trying to find a reason not to die?
  2. mortdesinos

    mortdesinos Well-Known Member

    Get some medication and watch curb
  3. elpepo

    elpepo Active Member

    I sometimes wonder if medication would help. Medication can't make 2 + 2 equal five, can it? :(
  4. cofmadness

    cofmadness Well-Known Member

    That doesn't make you an idiot lol. but um yeah it doesn't sound like you're ready to at the moment either... which is good.
  5. Chargette

    Chargette Well-Known Member

    I think my meds makes 2 + 2 = 5 for me :)

    Keep posting, we help each other.
  6. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    If it takes a TV show to keep you stable then so be it..Take each day as it comes..Don't set unrealistic goals..Have you talked with a therapist?? It sounds like you need guidance more than anything..Please don't do anything rash.. Seek a good therapist and work from there..