I am suicidal and depressed like never before, please listen.

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by HomerSimpson, Jun 16, 2008.

  1. HomerSimpson

    HomerSimpson Well-Known Member

    People never before in my life and I am not exagerating have I been so depressed and suicidal. Please listen and tell me what to do. My best friend has been married for 19 years in a verbally abusive relationship. She married when she was 16 and her husband was 26. She finally got the courage and left him. She has a kid so it made it even harder. She told me about all the abuse and how she does not love him. Her family and pastor told her it was wrong for her to leave him and to go back for the kid and that maybe one day she will love him. Well she went back to him. No matter how much I begged her not to she did. No matter how much she has said she does not love him, and that she does not want to go back she feels she has to. Now how do I deal with this. How do I deal with knowing she is somewhere she does not want to be. Knowing she does not love him and she does not want to be there shes only there because of all the pressure. This is someone who has never been on her own so she does not know how to handle it. How do I deal with this because it has litterally eaten me alive on the inside knowing she is there. If it has crossed anyones mind, yes I am in love with her, but I have always kept it seperated from our friendship. Even now this is the friend that is so worried and concerned. Tell me something because I am hurting. She wants everything to go back to normal, to her it will, but for me how can I after knowing everything.
  2. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni

    Maybe you should distance yourself a little. Sounds like you really tried to help her and she just doesn't want to change. If you can keep the friendship alive after she goes back, then do it, but if not, don't feel guilty. If it is too hard for you to keep seeing/talking to this person than that is not a terrible thing. It sounds like she really hurt you.
    I hope everything works out ok