I have been unable to work for over ten years and leeching off my parents. I applied for social security disability some time ago. I was recently denied because apparently I am able to work despite the fact that I can't even do phone support from my own home or even apply for a job. There is an appeals process however you have to go to a hearing and appear before a judge and a clerk recorder etc will be present. I am terrified of this I have no money to see a psychiatrist at all. I have been on meds and getting what care I can from physician. I am absolutely terrified of going to that hearing to point where I would rather kill my self. I am considering committing my self because I am trapped and feel I have no way out because of suicide. However I am afraid they will bill me and expect to pay a ton of money for this. If they try and do that I will not only kill my self but the capitalist pigs that profit from the hospital. I absolutely will not pay anything over $500 and if they try and take my shit I will kill anyone that fucking tries. I cannot find any free mental health centers and information is extremely vague about billing. I have no insurance or any form assistance either. For the poor is the only option suicide? please tell me if you were in a similar situation and billed a lot of money etc.