I was a drunk. Created my career from nothing and then destroyed it with alcohol. Now I am jobless after 12 years of career and I am either under experienced or over experienced for new jobs. Fell back to alcohol and once again quit. Now my every waking moment is filled with thoughts of death. I have to support my mother financially but I am in no position to help myself. I dont know whom to turn to for support. I cannot afford a doctor now.All I have is a computer with net connection paid for one year. In another month or so I will be homeless. In India it is not easy to jump careers and I found it at my own expense. What to do.