I am 50 but have never had a serious love relationship. I feel like women are never on the same page as me. I am 6'4'' and trim and attractive but I guess I am different. Its hard to find anyone. I feel like I just want to bail out. It hurts me deeply that I have never had the love of a woman. When I was younger I was unattractive but got better looking in my last 10 years. But the early years of being called ugly affects my opinion of myself. Now I get second looks but I am still hurting. People are not very nice out there. I want to find a girl with as big a heart as mine. Why do people cheat? How can you leave someone thats given their life to you if it hurts them so deeply? I don't understand that? A woman could just cast me aside like an old pair of shoes after years of marriage? So how am I not discouraged to to put myself in such a position? I can't even say hurtful things to someone if I love them. I wish someone were out there as sensitive as me? I feel I am a chronic illness from just ending my lonely life these days. I want to make a woman happy and to love her but I can't find one I trust to feel that way?