I don't think I can do this anymore! I just want out! I fantasize of just going to sleep and not waking up. The pain is just unbearable. I have nothing to live for and I am just a robot!! I want to just end it all tonight!! I am scared and so alone. My husband is abusive both physically and emotionally. I give up and believe now that I am worthless I like he tells me day on and day out I feel like such a failure. I am 42 and have no kids while all my friends do. I have no college education. I work as an assistant manager in a retail store and live paycheck to paycheck. Hell, if I die who would really give a damn? I carry a bottle of Vicodin with me at all time so when it gets too unbearble I can finish it off! I drink nightly or smoke some weed to dull the pain! I dream of slitting my wrists and bleeding out just to wake up and cry because it was just a dream!