Hi, I am new here but I want to cut it to the chase and I am already so tired to write.... I am not normal and I never will be. I am gay from the most anti-homo country in the world I have social phobia, every time I fell for someone they turned me down saying they don't want relationship. I can't find happiness or peace with myself being this lonely. I need someone always emotionally, I am tired from myself and I want to die. The last guy I liked so much is now ditching me cuz he didn't want relationship and though he liked me but I was over him and now he just is afraid of me. I want him back, even as fuckbuddy but I want him and I don't know how to get him back without begging him cuz its not gonna work I know. I am average looking so its hard for me to get a guy. I am confused please help me.