i was up all nite using and today i must go see my therapist. i am really beginning to think i should call and cancel but i have to go in to get my meds. i hate it when i do these things to myself. i get so focused so geared on using i don't think about how i must function later. i hate it when i do this to myself but then again i really just needed the emotional break cause i have really been feeling like i just might lose it. oh well not like this matters to anyone anyways.