From time to time I have suicidal thoughts or "ideations" virtually out of the blue. Well, maybe not out of the blue...maybe it is a bit of the blues or depression and I am just in denial. Whatever the reason; obviously I have not followed through. I definitely do NOT have a plan. Once in awhile, it is a real battle, though. Hense, my user name. My sister recently had a double mastectomy and horrible rounds of chemo and radiation that made her very sick. She fought so hard, and beat it! Then she had a falling out with her daughters and told me she thought of taking all of the many pills that have been prescribed for her. After enduring so much... I try to understand--Why DO some people fight so hard to live and others commit suicide, or battle the idea of suicide. Some studies show that suicide or suicidal thoughts may be a symptom of a biological illness. What technique do use to control sudden death impulses? Sometimes I tell myself, silly stuff. Like, I wouldn't want anyone talking bad about me and my things are in a very disorganized mess right now. Sooo, I better organize. By the time I organize, the thought-impulse has vanished. Or, I think of the financial mess I would leave for my family. I better get that in control, especially since it is possible that my life insurance would not pay off. I guess what I am saying is that distraction obviously works for me.