My info is pretty screwed even when I look at it. I have a good job, nice family and even have a recently invigorated sex life/ just f-buddys but still great,but I am still not interested if I am here or not. I drive my car on the edge a lot of the time but only when others are not around as I dont want to endanger anyone else. wear no seatbelt and take the car to the limit and daydream about blazing out in glory, even when Paul Walker recently died my words were 'respect'. I can see only peace and no more stress if anything went right, should that be wrong :S Outwardly I am friendly and cheerful, I dont mope about or whine about life, but inside I have a very dark soul - very dark! I know its quite selfish of me to be like I am and I should be greatful for the wonderful life that I have. I know most of you have reasons for wanting to exit so to speak so I must sound very selfish/childish. but behind these eyes lies a dark existence and a numb feeling of not belonging here. If anyone I know knew the real me they would be shocked beyond all comprehension as I am jolly in life, but still yearn for the end. WTF is wrong with me!