I Am Very Worried About Myself

[Godsdrummer]

As I have stated in previous posts, I dont want to die, but I dont want to live either.

The fact of the matter is I now have a plan, and am seriously thinking of implementing that plan tonight.

I no longer trust myself.

What in the hell is wrong with me?

 

[jameslyons]

Hey there.

I haven't written you yet (I think), but I've been keeping up with your posts. I know that you're having troubles with your wife and falling off the wagon, but please reconsider doing anything serious. Why not attend an AA meeting tonight?

James.

 

[Roly]

please dont go through with your plan, as you said yourself you dont want to die, i know you also said you dont want to live, but death is the more permanent option, the one you cant go back on.
you're just struggling right now and need support
keep safe
xxxx

 

[Godsdrummer]

What is scary is that my plan is inexpensive and fool proof. I got it off the net and the only thing stopping me from going out there, picking that after work today is me.

I feel much closer this time around, than my last serious attempt back in October. That one landed me in the hospital for a week.

 

[EmptyLife]

Why don't you stay and hang out with us? Do you ever go to the chat room?
We on the forum are the least judgmental people you'll ever meet.
Do you have a support system where you are?
I go through mental torture every second of every day, yet I'm still around. And I don't have a full-time job like you.

 

[mdmefontaine]

hey. . how are you. . ? am worried. jameslyons had a good suggestion. go to a meeting.
problems are always complex; solutions can be simple. (famous general NOT ME that said that ) but it is true.

i hope you are hanging on. i hope you are talking to someone one. i am around alot, and many others. some are going thru the same things right now.
please don't go - we dont' want to lose you xxxxx (((Hugs))))

 

[~Claire]

Sadly we always think our plans are foolproof, we wouldn't try em otherwise. Maybe we are being naive or it's just wishful thinking that we'll get it right for once :unsure:?

You say you don't want to die & that's a good thing. Has anything happened lately that's made you feel worse?

Take care & stay safe, Claire xx