I am a sponger. I don't get out of bed til 2 in the afternoon. I just watch TV all day. I am Britains work shy. I do think I have a right to a particular job. And they say people like me will say they can't do it, that they don't want to. That's me. And then they say people like me come out with crap like "you don't understand." That's me. There isn't even an ounce of fight inside me. They think I should be fighting and that I'm a lazy loser because I don't. I'm broken, but that isnt an excuse that will wash. I'm mentally subjugated and starving. But because others who "had it tough" once made it I'm supposed to be some warrior. I am the cancer of this country. That is what all the newspapers and politicians will tell you. I can't even beg for help, I can't claim to be misunderstood, it won't wash. I'm alone, I'm depressed, defeated, deflated, militant motivational techniques are worthless. Maybe in suicide martyrdom can be formed, bring awareness to the fact that the worthless nature of our lives has led us to this point. I know what's going on and I know I am ill.