I am what you would call useless

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by sosotired, Dec 2, 2008.

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  1. sosotired

    sosotired Well-Known Member

    I recieve disabilty benifits because of my social phobia, housebound depression. I dont help my parents out. I am addicted to the internet and gaming. I have no friends and have never had a girlfriend. I even hate socialising online.

    I often think to myself that people would benefit if I just disapeared but I dont think I can go through with suicide. I feel like a prisoner in my own home (or should I say my parents home).

    I used to be an active person in my younger years but now I am just a lay about waste of space. Why am I even typing this message? :huh:
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    You are not useless, you are frightened...this is very different...is there anything else you can do online, like take a course, which you can feel more satisfaction spending time on? Just a thought...big hugs, J
  3. sosotired

    sosotired Well-Known Member

    Hi yeah I guess there is more I can do online. Like learn something. I have a really short attention span which is why I usually avoid the online courses. I hated school with a passion.
  4. jam1e

    jam1e Guest

    If you look into the star filled sky at night it makes you, (me) realise just how insignificant we really are in the grand scheme of things.:smile:
  5. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Wow, that is very good insight Jackie.
    I agree.

    You are worthy and useful, maybe you do not see in what way you are or can be, but no person on this Earth was born into the world useless.

  6. Mightbehere

    Mightbehere Well-Known Member

    Have you tried playing video games? they can cheer you up?
  7. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    good advice

    they can definitely take your mind off things

    it's amazing how much playing some grand theft auto can change my thinking.
    other things that have helped me:
    watching Scrubs (or any funny TV episode)
    smoking a cigarette

    anything to ground you, bring you back to reality
  8. sosotired

    sosotired Well-Known Member

    Yes all the time and watch movies but its getting me nowhere in life. I am an extremely lazy person, I have no motivation or ambition.
  9. soliloquise

    soliloquise Well-Known Member

    that is a common symptom of depression. doesn't mean you are useless at all.
  10. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    I can so relate...I am housebound too:sad: because of depression and anxiety. I spend my day usually helping out at home and on SF, that's all I do. If you wanna chat about it feel free to PM me :hug:
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