I have survived one serious suicide attempt in April of 2012 and several initial attempts over the past year and a half. I received a diagnosis of having Major Depressive Disorder with psychotic symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Anxiety disorder in December of 2011. I have been hospitalized (inpatient) 9 times at the local Psychiatric Institute since I was diagnosed. I am currently in the tail end of a Social Security Disability Claim that i have had to fight by myself with out a lawyer. During this period, I have lost everything, my home, things I loved to do, my hobbies, my friends, and literally am completely alone. I have had to sell everything to pay rent since I have not worked since November of 2011. I am extremely worried what will happen to me in a month when I will either win or lose my disability case and will become homeless. I started hearing voices again a couple of days ago. It just seems everything is going wrong. I am a prisoner in my apartment as I avoid contact with everyone. I still have my dog which means everything to me and I don't want to abandon him. I have had him for 13 years... he deserves better though.