I don't know what to do anymore....sigh... last 4 days are a hell, i wasnt so severly depressed since March i guess... i don't know what triggered all this...
But im just so alone...year ago i at least had friends... they were not best friends, but i could comfortably talk about my feelings with them... now everything is worse...
i even cant cut where i want, since i have a doctor in feb and she or he will see scars and then tell my mother... its driving me crazy cause i really want to cut my legs so much that there would be no place left... i need to some real bleeding not just small amount of blood on spaces which can be covered (like socks etc...):cry: