im sorry, it's not my fault that i was born, i really had no say in the matter. they just went off and, ya know had me, fully knowing that i would probly be as fucked up as they are. im sorry it happened... I didn't mean to come to this site and bother anybody, i just kind of found it one day. I was really looking for more, like, pro kind of shit, because i guess thats just how fucked i am. Im sorry i swear so much too. i cant...make things come out right when im thinking about these things...it always sounds wrong, or annoying, or like im being stupid or looking for attention. i dont want attention, i could care less if anyone reads this, or replies to it, or gives a rats ass about what i have to say. I just dropped in for a little bit anyways. Here's what my main point is: I woke up this morning, and i had an epiphany. What am i doing with my life? i thought. school? woop dee, even that i cant do right. All those times that i tried to OD myself, i finaly realized why it never worked. It wasn't GOD saying i should attempt to stay here like the Bishop tried to tell me, it was something else. I finally figured it out. I was using the wrong pills. Tylonel wont do anything but slowly damage your liver, you cant DIE from it unless your allergic to one of the ingredients. So i organized a new plan. I thought this one through. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> should work right? my fren takes these REALLY strong ones, prescription, but she doesnt always remember to take them. Sometimes she just doesnt want to and she hides them in her pillow case so that her mom doesnt notice or something...so i stole them. there must be at least 80 here. I know i know its wrong to steal from a fren right? but shes not using them anyways, and i need them. I have them, I have some tequilla, and I have a kiwee, im allergic to them, so i figured itd be better measures to have them too. IDK why, i guess ill just be a dead girl covered in hives. Not like im pretty to begin with. I thought id just tell everybody that. i had to say something. Just the way that i am. It might still not work. Who knows? GOD might actually want me here, if he's even there....who knows that either. Hopefully ill soon find out. Goodbye.