I attempted again on Wednesday. I got let out of the hospital today. I don't really feel any better. In fact I pretty much still feel the same as I did before. I called the crisis line after I <METHOD> and the cops and the ambulance came and got me and I was feeling pretty gnarly by the time I got to the hospital. They fed me charcoal and gave me IV fluids and my condition didnt improve so I saw the kidney specialist and almost had to have dialysis. It wasnt a pleasant time, but it wasn't overall too bad. I spent Wednesday night in the ER and Thursday night in the psych ward and the psychiatrist let me go home today (Friday) a little before noon. I dont feel any better like I said before... I saw my counselor for my regularly scheduled appointment today and she had some good suggestions, but part of me really doesnt want to follow the suggestions I just want to try it again and go to the hospital again. I miss being in the hospital.