I Attempted Again...

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by Amanda, Aug 10, 2013.

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  1. Amanda

    Amanda Well-Known Member

    I attempted again on Wednesday.

    I got let out of the hospital today. I don't really feel any better. In fact I pretty much still feel the same as I did before. I called the crisis line after I <METHOD> and the cops and the ambulance came and got me and I was feeling pretty gnarly by the time I got to the hospital. They fed me charcoal and gave me IV fluids and my condition didnt improve so I saw the kidney specialist and almost had to have dialysis. It wasnt a pleasant time, but it wasn't overall too bad. I spent Wednesday night in the ER and Thursday night in the psych ward and the psychiatrist let me go home today (Friday) a little before noon.

    I dont feel any better like I said before... I saw my counselor for my regularly scheduled appointment today and she had some good suggestions, but part of me really doesnt want to follow the suggestions I just want to try it again and go to the hospital again. I miss being in the hospital.
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    You are not the only one hun that feels safe in hospital but in time hun you will see that accepting the support of others in the community will benefit you as well. Use your councilors suggestions ok hugs
     
  3. emily83

    emily83 Well-Known Member

    glad you survived

    keep reaching out to us
     
  4. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    You need to embrace the help you are being given. You need to address this unhealthy relationship you have with the need to be in hospital. Being in hospital yes makes you safe, but it's not going to solve all of your problems, you need to work on that yourself with your doctors and therapists. You're only harming yourself by your many attempts so you're not safe at all.
     
  5. I'm new as of Sunday, but I'm glad you survived too!!
     
  6. Amanda

    Amanda Well-Known Member

    I actually forgot I had made this thread... Sorry for disappearing... I got out of the hospital and made this thread and then I attempted again on Saturday and was hospitalized until Tuesday... Not sure how Im doing now.
     
  7. mpang123

    mpang123 Well-Known Member

    Amanda, I know that being in a hospital can be addicting. It's a safe haven and you're around others who are similar to you and you have lots of support by other patients and therapists. I know because I'm the same way. Sometimes I purposely do something to be back in hospitals but somehow I decided to cope with my problems out in the real world. It is difficult sometimes being out here. It may seem that we are all alone and nobody wants to help you when you want help. I'm struggling myself right now cuz I'm idolizing the "safety and support" given in hospital settings. That's why I keep posting here for support and to vent whatever I want to say. It's also a form of support and there's no threat to express yourself without being committed to hospitals. Here is a chance to share with others and find out that we are really not alone in what we want. Good luck to you and as they say, "keep processing" here, and they mean it. I get support here and hope you find it helpful too. Hang in there! (From a peer to a peer).
     
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