1. Was molested by a teacher and relative age around 8-9 2. Never had a GF.... possibly from being molested 3. Virgin in my 30s... well other than being molested 4. Owe $30,000 in debt 5. Unemployed 6. Overweight..... run 5 miles a day but weight not coming off! 7. Ugly..... strangers laugh at me all the time which probably caused me to become a shut-in 8. Parents barely support me financially even though they dont have much money 9. Mom very ill and near death. 10. Pressures from family to go get a job and marry 11. Addiction to gambling.... blew $10,000 recently which I had won. So why wouldnt you commit suicide if you were me? I have decided to finally do it and I actually feel happy for the first time in my life!