I bid the world goodbye

[amylou]

The time has come for me to try again to end my sad pathetic misereable life.
My life has beaten me any way and all the evil things people have made me endure. Rape and abuse is my main problem. With depression and psycotic episodes. I plan to take pills more this time with some <Mod Edit: Abacus21-method>. I used to belive things would get better but even when as thick as I am I have to admit this is never going to get any better, if anything it'll get worse. Lord take me home

 

[Cybrsk8r]

Amy,

Please think this thru before you take that last step. I sense the pain in your words, but I don't think you're pathetic. Whoever put you thru the abuse is the pathetic one.

Please know that I, and many others, care about you. Please don't leave us. :hug:

 

[amylou]

I have done nothing else but think it through. My mum has twigged something is up, so as to throw her off the sent I have brought myself a kitten but it was also cos mum wanted a kitten so she can have her when I am gone. Life is so damn cruel and hard.

It's all to late for me now I have no choice left.
It's the only way

 

[rd9671]

Amy, I have been thru the abuse, depression, and psychosis as you have. I know the fear and frustration with it as well as the overwhelming depression and self hatred. If you have already done this thing I hope that you will go to hospital and get the help you so richly deserve. It is the hardest thing to go thru, I know but it is worth it in the end. Please talk to me... I am here for you.

 

[Hae-Gi]

I am sorry how things have turned out for you... I don't know of you, since I am new here, but I doubt you are pathetic; sounds more like you're blaming yourself for your misfortunes, which is incorrect. However, if you have come to this decision, disrespecting it is just not right, and certainly not what I do... I am very sorry for your situation, and if you go through with it, I wish you nothing but peace.

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[amylou]

Thanks hay gi and red 21 i wish i had the courage to stay but I cant its not just me to think of now I have to keep my family safe

 

[amylou]

Sorry rd2971 I got your name wrong just now.
<mod edit-gentlelady-response to troll> I'd love just to be sectioned or what ever as to try and sort my head out so that I can get with my life. If your shrink doped you up then your lucky. I should be in a place now specialy for my illness but unfortuanatly for me my shrink is to tight to get the public funding.

 

[rd9671]

Try to find a new doc, your current one sounds like an idiot.

 

[amylou]

tell me about it he is a jerk

 

[gentlelady]

I am glad to see you are still with us amylou. If you truly think hospitalization is the best thing for you at this time, then do it. You do not have to wait for your shrink to put you in. You can voluntarily commit yourself. It may not be to a hospital that specializes in your disorders, but it would be a place to start. Don't give up until all options are depleted. You still have many available to you.