As I read your comments, I can feel the pain through the words. I too have extreme compulsion to kill myself. I just want to stop the pain. My question: How any people are in therapy? I just want to know. I have been in therapy for many years, but I haven't talked in detail about my suicidal behavior. I was too scared of being put into the hospital. I made a mistake and I just made things worst. I know that the hurt can override the mind. Suicidal thoughts don't go away.