Every day I feel it getting closer and closer. I have this plan, it's quite a good plan (I think), one that makes it seem entirely like natural causes (I've done lots of research!). Every day I wonder "if today will be the day?" will there be enough reason, any reason NOT to do it. Up til now there has been, but everything is falling apart. I'll be honest. I'm scared shítless, it's getting closer and closer and the places to run are fast disappearing.