i just don't care about life anymore. every day is exactly the same. i don't really want to die, but god i really don't enjoy life. i'm so lazy, i suck at school, i basically suck at everything. i feel so empty and purposeless all the time. i don't want to live anymore and i'm honestly thinking of ending it. people have been telling me life will get better but i've waited and i just don't see any improvement. at least if i kill myself it will be the first time i've ever taken initiative to do something. i really don't want to live anymore.