I'm stuck. Stuck in a very sucky relationship. He doesnt care about my feelings. I hate him but I have to stay with him. When he drinks he's unpredictable and can be seriously abusive. I keep giving him the ultimatum me or drinking but he doesnt care. Mostly because he knows I have no place to go and no means to take care of me and my 3 kids. Im agoraphobic and cant go out alone, I wouldnt even be able to take my daughter to school let alone pay any of the bills or rent. If we did break up and he left, he would just get drunk and break in. Its happened before. I have no help with the kids, I'm alone with them all day. I only get to go outside like once a week. Nothing I do is good enough. He constantly puts me down. My kids are the only thing keeping me alive. Things are just getting worse. I want to check myself into a hospital but I have no one to take care of my babies. All I feel is despair and hopelessness and Im so sick of being scared. Scared if he's drinking and what will happen if he is. On top of everything I'm getting no sleep. Im surviving on 3-4 hours a night. I dont know how long I can keep going.
Sorry for the wall of text and poor grammer and all that, once I started I just kept going. Im too upset to go back and try to fix it
Sorry for the wall of text and poor grammer and all that, once I started I just kept going. Im too upset to go back and try to fix it