I can never seem to stop for very long

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by O.Kate, Nov 23, 2014.

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  1. O.Kate

    O.Kate New Member

    I started when I was about 16 (I'm 22 now) and a few times I've even managed to go a few months without it but I can just never keep it up. A few days ago marked exactly a year since my first suicide attempt and a couple weeks before I was in hospital when I tried again so it's gotten worse lately. I'm pretty careless about it now, I started carving words and I don't even try to hide the cuts any more. A lot of times I find myself looking for reasons to do it. I'm concerned that it's just so ingrained in me that I won't ever be completely out. I know this isn't healthy but I find it just doesn't feel normal to go very long without it. I guess at this point I feel kind of uncomfortable feeling okay for any amount of time really and I get pretty guilty about it. I don't always feel like I want to anymore, I'm convinced that I should and I have to. I don't really know where to go from here

    Anyone in a similar boat?
     
  2. phaz

    phaz Member

    I was in a similar boat.
    Do you find you tend towards self harm when your angry, or depressed, bored? For me, when I used to cut, it was only when I was angry. Now, I've found much more productive ways of coping: through arts, writing, and focusing my energy on something specific.
     
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