Ok, boring post probably but whatever. I can taste the depression, kinda like exhaust fumes but very faint, more of a feeling really. Anyhow, yeah, been shit for 11 years, last 2 years trying to get better and get back to stage one again and wham, its back again. I'm thinking of suicide yet again as a possible solution. 2 therapists and a shit load of drugs. Some relationships all ending like shit as usual and a load of 'life experiance' has led me to where I am now which is most undoubtebly going to be worse off for everyone else this time and not just me. I've got a choice, carry on the way i'm going as comforting as it may seem, or consult medical advice once again. With the ultimatum of it not working the third time me loosing my sense of all things human which is very bad. I'm piping hot and i need some serious help me thinks. Help.