i cannot stand this any longer i hate being used and thrown out. this is how people treat each other. use and then throw out. a package on a shelf. when they are "full" with other people there is no room for me. my only function in life is to cater for their needs when they want. i am worthless. disgusting. a person who humiliates herself because she is lonely. who does not have any self-respect. i've had it. i've had enough, of myself and of others who have claimed to 'care' in the past. how can they live with themselves and what they have done? this is unbearable. i've got no one to talk to. i've not been this close to killing myself in a long while and i've got the means of doing it now. it's all i can think of. this world and the people in it are not meant for me. they take what i feel and twist and warp it and do not respect the fragility of what i have handed over to them.