for those who don't know me, I have lyme disease and have been toying with the idea of moving to oregon and getting physician assisted suicide or going to sweden or something. well I can't now. no matter how bad the suffering gets I have to suffer through and survive. my worst fear has come true. my son has it he is 17 and so full of life, an amazing athlete, gifted student. this disease just sucks. i hope we caught it early and he can be cured, i dont want him to end up with permanent neuro, brain, heart damage. now I have to be strong for him. if I kill myself, what kind of message would that send to him, who has the same disease?