I can't connect with anyone. I feel that I can't be close to anyone or be expressive. I have a hard time telling people how I feel or what I'm thinking. I can talk to girls, hold a conversation with them, and get them to laugh but I can't tell them how I feel. I think I have some sort of anxiety disorder, at least I was prescribed medication for it. It feels like women are always judging me, waiting for me to make the first move, expecting me to be perfect for them, wanting me to be something that I'm not. It takes a while for me to be completely comfortable around a girl but by that time they loose interest and find someone else. And sometimes they get pregnant by someone else. I don't think that things will change. I've lost confidence in myself and faith in women. So to prevent myself from turning into a woman hater I've stopped caring, stopped responding, and stopped reacting. I will become empty, dark, and cold. And I will leave this society as quickly as I can because I don't think I have a place in it.