You know I have recently noticed in life. That I get content... hell maybe even a little happy. Then life does something, I get dumped or everything goes wrong at work and I crash back down into a depression. Today, work went completely wrong. I missed a few things, there are bugs that are fucking with me and making fixing stuff hard. I look like an idiot because I forgot to take care of some stuff. Stuff is not working... I have 1000 things due and there is nothing I can do about it... right now I just want to kill myself... I won't... but I want too. Life is becoming less and less worth it. The periods in my life which I am happy or content are so very brief. Yet my depession lasts for hours, days, weeks, even months. Then I get a few hours of happiness or at least not feeling depressed and I am back on the bottom rung. I just cannot see the point in living a life like this for much longer.