have a sort of justification eating me alive, i want to believe that one day i am going to have a famiy, love and being loved but i cann't.........all my anger that i cann't fit to every stereotype of 'making it' in life,not being a looser, standing on my feet' is killing me day after day.I am so embarashed that i am not as strong as others, that i am not like others, the achievers,the ones that nothing stops them from achieving their dreams.My social obligation to be like them when i cann't,when i feel that i am totally unimportant to everyone who just keep mentioning them to make me feel that if i were like that, i would be something important?Is somebody important regardless or does somebody have to make important acts/works to be considered important? I try to fool myself and i tried to fool myself in the past that by doing some acts of social value like going to college,being fit and pretty,etc. i was at least not a rubbish but nothing has filled my heart's emptyness.
i cann't live like this, my need to
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