I have 5 kids, my oldest two have a different father. In June I stopped getting c/s because my second oldest graduated high school. Both oldest are in college and completely depend on me. Since I stopped getting that extra income, my finances have spiraled into decline (I was borderline poverty level with only my income from my full time job). I now have 3 payday loans that take up my whole paycheck for the minimum payments. The day after payday I'm overdrawn. Every night, I can't sleep because I think about how to get money for milk, cereal, school snacks, lunch money, gas, and dinner for the next day. I have sold everything of value that I own on eBay, short of the kids PlayStation and 2 games. I don't do drugs, smoke, or drink....I'm just struggling to feed my kids. I have a 14-year old in football that can eat $20/day alone. I collect cans to recycle. I sell my plasma. Every day I struggle even to buy ramen noodles for the kids. My husband won't give me money, he thinks it's my job to feed and provide for the kids. I think about suicide every day. I can't keep on like this. I don't think I could handle a second job. I can't do this anymore. You have no idea what it feels like to watch your kids be hungry. My gross income is too high to qualify for welfare. Already get reduced price school lunch, can barely pay for that. I cry myself to sleep every night and have absolutely reached my breaking point.