I try to do way more helping than asking for help, so this I know is kind of unusual for me. I'm getting more agitated and restless every day. Nothing seems to calm me. My father threatened suicide xxxx because he thinks he's responsible for all of our family's problems. My mother said she drinks because of me. I quit therapy because I couldn't stand to talk about myself anymore, it just made me feel more upset and I didn't feel any better after sobbing and screaming. I feel like my psychiatrist betrayed me, he told my parents I was a suicidal crisis, but at the time I wasn't. I don't trust the medication he gives me. I think it's contaminated with nanobugs that eat away at my brain. People are poisoning my food to make me sick. I can't leave it alone for a second. I think everyone's playing mind games with me and I don't know who to trust. There are bugs in my brain that are eating it and it's getting worse by the day. All of my medication is poisoned because the pharmacy is too stupid to check it before they fill it. I can feel those fucking bugs in my brain. There's a group of people who mess with my thoughts. They can rearrange them or stop them. They're everywhere, and they can do anything. They have total control over my body and thoughts. I know they're going to make me do something terrible. Edit: Nevermind, I know all of this is bullshit. It's just a feeling that comes over me sometimes. Sorry.